My None Wedding Celebrations!

If you have been following my blog for a while you'll know by now that me and my H2B were due to get married this Saturday just past Sept 3rd, but sadly we went our separate ways in June and the wedding was cancelled!

So that I wouldn't feel to sad about my none wedding day, the gals took me out and we went to Dalston, East London to The Alibi, where we go most weekends... its a great place, no entrance fee, good music and 'cool' people!

This Saturday was one of 'those', firstly dinner had to be relocated to our flat, then on the bus up to Dalston some man (who had just got out of Hackney nick) started a fight with us, telling us we were spoilt little country girls just because of the way we spoke... I made the girls move to the front of the bus and tell the driver when the man started hitting the seat : O

Then when we were in The Alibi for a change they had a retro night with amazing music, we danced our little butts of... and got very hot and sweaty!  But the best part of the night was when we went upstairs for some air, and a bride, groom and wedding party arrived in full dress... How ironic is that?

*sorry it's sidewards - blogger keeps changing it!

The hardest kiss is not the first, but the last - Paul Geraldy

The Wedding that never was...

Today is August 3rd, which means if H2B and me were still together there would only be a month to go until the big day... and I would be freaking out big time about what hasn't been done and what is still to do.

Looking at the silver lining, I am very relaxed today and enjoying the lovely weather : )  Below are the plans, as far as we had got before we called it off...

So I am a little behind if I am honest in this whole planning 'the' wedding, I've got a little over excited by themes!

We'll we've decided to change our wedding due to a little falling out earlier in the year... and I am hoping we can still get married this year before our marriage licence runs out (Sep 3rd 2011).  If not I guess it will be next year.  Thankfully postponing has a silver lining, I can have the wedding the way I want it, not the way the families would like it!

It's going to be, most likely, just the two of us eloping to some remote, romantic get away... UK based!  Or a small, immediate family only (and I mean parents, siblings and their partners) get together - low key, cheap but with style.

We had booked Penhros Court as our wedding venue, in Herefordshire, confirmed the photographer Katch22, and I had found the dress I wanted a high street bargin :)

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Letting Go Takes Love!

So as you all know, around the end of last year/beginning of this year me and my H2B had a rough patch and postponed the wedding and took sometime apart to reassess...

We rekindled our love and got back together after only a few weeks, but kept the wedding on the back burner as to not add any unnecessary pressure.  It is with a heavy heart that I tell you all after 5 months back together we were unable to resolve the underlying problem in our relationship and have decided it is for the best to stop trying, as we love each other greatly and wish to keep that feeling, and remember our time together fondly!

So after 4.5 years together I am coming to terms with being single again, no longer with the plans I once had -  home, marriage, babies... as they say what is your 5 year plan, I no longer have an answer to that!

But what I can say is he was my first real love, and will forever hold a special place in my heart.  I wish him the best of luck for the future and hope he finds happiness, and myself, so that one day we can be friends.  For now though I will focus on myself!

I feel no sadness or regret and harbour no bitter feelings, if I have learnt one thing it is that life sometimes is not a fairytale and I would rather we walk away now, than get married and make it worse.  I hope other people who may be reading this and are in a similar situation can take hope that IT WILL BE OKAY.

Type 'love is letting go' into Google and you will come across some great quotes to inspire you!

I still plan to blog about weddings, because even though I am no longer a bride to be, I am still very excited by weddings.